I knelt before the Lion, weak and afraid as I set my crown at His feet. A tear ran down my chin. I was so at peace yet also shook to my core. He paused, wind blowing through His golden mane, and picked up the crown. Placing it back on my head, He roared.
Last Sunday a few of my roommates and I went to a worship night at Grace Midtown Church where the worship band House Fires was originated. As people filed into the pews I looked at my friend and said simply, “ I don’t know why, but I’m really not excited for tonight.” I had been looking forward to it for the last couple of days because this band is one of my absolute favorites, but for some reason I just wasn’t feeling it. The lights dimmed and the space was created and I felt so incredibly heavy. I sat with my head in my hands and started praying about the feelings I was having. Soon after the Lord gave me this beautiful image of me as a young child standing before Him, represented as a Lion. At first I physically shuttered, afraid at His presence before me, beneath me, and all around me. The heaviness brought me to my knees before Him and I felt absolutely enveloped with peace and reverence towards the Lion. His eyes were gentle and kind. Kneeling before Him felt like a glimpse into what it will look like when we see Him face to face at the beginning of eternity. No more worry, shame, pain or fear. I could physically hear and feel all of the people around me worshiping, but I felt like I was completely alone with the Lord in silence. I can barely describe the feeling besides total awe. He showed me the same scene, kneeling before Him and laying my crown at different stages of life. As a small child my crown was also just a small adornment, and as I grew so did its embellishments as it gained gems and intricate details. Sometimes it was harder to lay down my crown than others and I forgot who gave me the crown in the first place. I forgot that it is an adornment and get caught up in its outward beauty. Each time the Lion waited for me and I laid it at His feet, and then returned the crown to my head. It was one of the most beautiful images I have received from Him. I sat in surrender for a few minutes, and then stood and praised in total joy of the Lord for the rest of the night.
I am still trying to discern what that all meant. Maybe it has a super deep theological meaning, or maybe it was just a beautiful picture of what our lives as Christ followers looks like. Totally surrendering all we have at our Lord’s feet, and accepting the truth that we are His beloved.
He is proud of us and loves to adorn us.
Maybe it’s all of the above. Either way, I hope this is of some encouragement to you today. Bring your whole self to the Lord, regardless of any doubt. Lay your head on His chest and feel His heart beating for you. And as He roars, except His protection and breath in your lungs. He will sustain you and shelter you.
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